Sonali on cancer treatment: It's a minute-to-minute battle with myself
What's the story
Sonali Bendre, who is battling cancer, has proved she is a warrior time and again.
The diva has been quite outspoken about her battle with cancer and she didn't let it overpower her will to survive.
But in her recent post, Sonali spoke about the 'bad days' of her painful fight where she was in a minute-to-minute battle with herself.
It was a cycle of pain, physical, mental, and emotional
In her post, Sonali unfolded the excruciating side of her battle and spoke about the pain she underwent even for lifting a finger.
"The bad days have been many where even just laughing hurts," she wrote.
Sonali further said that it was a cycle of pain for her which started from physical pain followed with mental and emotional pain.
I allowed myself to cry, to feel the pain: Sonali
Furthermore, Sonali said that during the painful treatment, she allowed herself to cry, to feel the pain.
The actress said that there is no point in faking happiness as it serves no purpose.
"Only you know what you're going through and it is fine to accept it," she added.
However, Sonali also mentioned that one must not let the negative emotions control your life.
Self-care is the key to fight, says Sonali
Talking about her battle, Sonali revealed that she managed to overcome the pain because of self-care.
"Sleep always helps, or having my favorite smoothie after chemo, or just talking to my son," she added.
The actress is still continuing her treatment.
But she is certainly an inspiration for everyone, teaching how to live life irrespective of circumstances.
Despite her painful battle, Sonali inspires millions
“I knew that if I allowed fear to overtake me, my journey was doomed. Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me.” – Cheryl Strayed, Wild.
Over the past couple of months, I have had good days and bad ones. There have been days when I’ve been so exhausted and in so much pain that even lifting a finger hurt. I feel like sometimes it’s a cycle… one that starts off with physical pain and leads to mental and emotional pain. The bad days have been many… Post chemo, post-surgery and the like… where even just laughing hurts.
Sometimes it felt like it took everything I’ve had to push past it… a minute to minute battle with myself. I got through it knowing that even though I was fighting a long drawn out, draining battle… it was one that was worth the fight.
It’s important to remember that we’re allowed to have those bad days. Forcing yourself to be happy and cheerful all the time serves no purpose. Who are we being fake and putting on an act for?
I allowed myself to cry, to feel the pain, to indulge in self-pity… for a short while. Only you know what you’re going through and it is fine to accept it. Emotions aren’t wrong. Feeling negative emotions isn’t wrong. But after a point, identify it, recognize it and refuse to let it control your life.
It takes an immense amount of self-care to get out of that zone. Sleep always helps, or having my favourite smoothie after chemo, or just talking to my son.
For now, as my treatment continues… my visual focus remains to just get better and get back home.
It’s yet another test…
Student all my life…
Learning all my life…
#OneDayAtATime
